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do you make sense of anything what's taking place what's not taking place what could be what could not be what is what isn't processing not processing critiquing yourself criticizing yourself judging yourself navigating through your own voice other voices your brain your heart potential versus what's in front of you scared to make a mistake scared to miss the mark scared period confused overwhelmed anxious angry wanting to run away from it all while wanting to dive head first scared to let go scared to hold on potential versus intention words versus actions history versus future defense versus pride zero inhibitions while holding onto self righteousness any sort of righteousness dignity for that matter truth versus fiction romance versus reality love versus hate indifference while caring with every ounce of your being what's wrong with you what's wrong with me questions asked answers not found wasted heart thoughts wasted on one who does not care rhythm versus rate control versus sacrifice sleep versus rest contentment versus striving making friends with the unknown losing yourself versus finding yourself blooming versus withering lead versus follow doubt or fear crying out versus silence comfort in the silence comfort in the crying out comfort in being alone longing for your touch or longing for any touch depth versus connection security versus risk adoration versus lust lust versus love love versus companionship companionship versus stagnation passivity versus passion giving up versus giving in affected to a depth through the lack thereof absence versus presence praying versus complaining pleading versus begging busyness versus productivity productivity versus performance performance versus a facade your facade our facade head knowledge versus heart knowledge give versus take push versus pull abandoned versus with abandon healing versus pain 

...the heaviness of it all, do you make sense of anything anything versus nothing nothing versus everything.  its everything.